It was a slippery slope from there. Five years later I was also prescribed pain killers after a skiing accident, and it was a recipe for disaster. I told myself the whole time I was still sober because they were prescribed by a physician, even though I knew better.
Things steadily got worse, and eventually, my marriage ended. I got back into recovery for four years, but an unhealthy relationship and emotional pain led me down a dangerous path and I relapsed again, this time with marijuana, and went on a downward spiral of isolation and addiction.
In my early 50s, I found myself all alone and hiding out in my basement. My brother, who knew about Herren Wellness because he knows Chris Herren, found me like this and told me enough was enough. Off we went on a plane to Herren Wellness.
I was one of their very first guests. Even though I arrived late at night, around 1 am, I was warmly greeted, and it immediately felt like home. The grounds and property were so beautiful, and all the staff and guests were very welcoming, I felt safe and comfortable there right away.
Everyone I met gave me a hug and kind words. I had been isolating and in pain for so long; it was just what I needed. When I met Chris, Heather, and Lori they all made me feel like part of the Herren Wellness family.
I was finally able to take a breath and dig into the ‘why’ behind my substance use and emotional pain. Herren Wellness helped me work through my guilt and shame and develop skills and tools I could use immediately to help me feel better both physically and emotionally.
I had been in treatment centers before, but Herren Wellness is a wellness center where they work on all parts of you. It’s so much more than putting down substances. My confidence improved, and I was able to go deep into myself and feel safe and supported. It wasn’t easy, and it got intense at times, but I never felt as though I was in it alone.
My family is on the west coast, and the Herren Wellness team became my family. It was really hard at first, but they worked with me and my individual challenges and opportunities. Everyone gets a personalized program, which is something I had never seen before.